I grow weary of your rigid controls
I tire of your perceived need to hold
I resent you opinion that I am still too sick
But in all honesty I just don’t give a shit
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But I’ll play your game for as long as I must
I’ll dance and I’ll sing on command so you trust
And believe when I say I can play like a pro
So well, so convincingly you won’t even know
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For as long as I must I shall be your dead puppet
With you hand up my arse like a fake fucking muppet
Oh no don’t you worry I’ll act out your show
With poise and with presence I’ll dazzle like bright snow
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But there will come a time when you must set me free
And that time is the moment chosen by me
I’ll play your fucked games and I’ll do what you say
Remember though that when its done I’ll have done it my way
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I will bide my time and i will watch and I’ll wait
I’ll look for those moments that you make a mistake
And when you’re back’s turned I shall do as I please
Making melody of fantasy I distract to appease
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So for the time being I shall dance this ballet
As I weave I shall dream of that soon coming day
That no more shall you have so much power over me
For you see I am not so lost as you believe me to be
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For two whole years I felt like one dead
Without an evocative pulse in my head
It felt like all colour was leached from my world
It seemed like my blossom was permanently furled
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But now I am alive again
Only to waken to this soul fucking pain
That you do not seem to know just who I am
And it saddens me greatly that maybe… You never can.
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